Today is a turning point. I only had to drive 420 miles today to Salem Virginia. Yesterday was a hard day. I drove 650 miles to Nashville only to not be greeted by the hotel desk clerk. This particular LaQuinta doubles as a homeless shelter and let’s say it is not in the best part of town.
I know I am a hotel snob and I wouldn’t have it any other way. So after driving for 12 hours (the last two with Sedona declaring she wanted out of the car) it was a long day. Great news they put me on the first floor so I could listen to the fellas next door drinking. Then I found out my sister who sporadically talks to me has arrived in Mass. My mother had decided to keep it quiet thus perpetuating a very old cycle.
I put my black obsidian necklace on and asked for help to hug my anger then let it go. It worked and I was able to sleep. We were out of there at 7:00am and headed to VA. During the drive, I had two phone calls with my mom one pretending to be surprised my sis was here and the other apologizing for lying. So this is re-entry; all issues come right up after leaving Sedona. Ok, Universe I am ready:)
Needless to say when we feel anger or hurt it means we care. These emotions must be embraced and hopefully if it makes sense to talk about them. I am sure my mom thinks I am an alien half the time but I got to give it to her –she hangs in there and keeps trying. My Dad may not get anything that is going on with my sis and me but he gets me on a very different level that very few understand. Go figure!
We are settled in to our hotel room after going to the local Krogers and planning a trip to Starbucks in the morning. It was so comforting to be greeted by the hotel’s manager–an Indian woman. What a relief–you see when I see a person of color I know I am in a safe place in Virginia despite the billboard of a machine gun I saw two hours South. And I doubt the Starbucks customers pack heat.
So here I am with my two fabulous traveling companions almost back to Northampton but totally back in the outside Sedona world. Loving and accepting others is all we can do. Their actions are about them and their hurts and not really about us. Despite their fire in our direction. I chose to be angry and hurt about my situation and then I chose to love, forgive and let go because that is all I can do.
P.S. Did you hear Starbucks is going to start serving beer and wine? After drinking at their bucks then we can go home and have BK delivered–the world is sure changing:)